God Is On Our Side
This life is a journey not a destination. These words are not my own obviously. I don’t remember who first said these words, and maybe no one does. It is just one of those things people say. All my life, I have been trying to wrap everything up in a new little bow, rushing to the finish line, trying to accomplish something that means something. I rush from thing to thing, never once slowing down to enjoy what I am learning. I believe that God has knocked my feet out from underneath me. Why? How else would I stop and listen? When would I slow down enough to see what God was trying to tell me. I am thankful for this time.  I am tired of kicking and screaming. God has sustained me, when I thought I could not take anymore. He has provided me with everything I need, I want for nothing. My theology has been wrong for most of my life. I do not think I ever really understood the meaning of grace. I thought I was not good enough for Him or to be used by Him. How many times in the Bible did Jesus hang with the thieves, the whores, and the downtrodden of society? Who did He use? He used broken vessels like me. I have been so selfish and foolish. This life is not about me, my rights, and what I want. It is not about the American Dream, having two point five children, or the perfect career. Bethany Dillon sings a song called “You Are On Our Side”, it is on this page, if you want to listen to it. It is about the weak of the world, the widow, the orphan, and the sick. It is about how God feels about those people. He sits at the table with them. He invites them to come to Him. How could I not believe that He loved me? How could I not understand He was on my side? How did I miss that? He chose me, I did not choose Him. He drew me unto Him. That is why I want to be a counselor. I want to help the wounded and the poor. I want to show them who can really fulfill them, who really loves them, the only one who can really heal them, and the only one who satisfies. I may sound like a cliche, or may be using trite phrases. I never said I was good with words. But we are fools, if we believe this is all there is to life. Father and Lord, Forgive Me.
Hi. My name is Laura, and this is my journey through infertility and chronic pain. I hope it will minister to you, or you can use it to minister to someone else.

